My Eleventh Post

Giddy spells have been hitting me recently. It hurts when i try to focus on far away objects. Occasional painful spells has also been affecting me. Maybe my days are numbered?

It all started when we were playing soccer. Terry and me were chasing the same ball. Suddenly, he slipped on the ball. Since i was already running so fast, i could not stop in time. I ended up tripping over his body, and cracking the back of my skull against the CONCRETE pavement. My HEAD vs the CONCRETE. Immediately after that, the feeling cannot be expressed in words. Just 2 words: VERY PAINFUL. It took a while for me to get to my feet. My friends assured me that i will be fine. But then, Kai Shuo told me that if i hit my head in the right place, i may die. He asked me to go for a check-up, but it would be quite expensive with the X-rays and all.

Thinking about it makes me very scared. What if one day i sleep and never wake up again? I have read newspaper articles on these type of incidents. I remember one of the articles where by a boy hit his head against a lamp post. He appeared to be fine for a few days. Suddenly, a few weeks later, he collasped and pass away. This report brings chills to my spine. What if the same thing happened to me?

I guess i'll just wait for a few days and see whether my condition deterioriate. I am so scared. I am living each day in fear. Maybe it never occurred to me that this will happen to me. Or maybe i am thinking too much. Maybe i am being too paranoid.

Thoughts: Life is just too short for us to enjoy everything. What we have to do is to treat each passing moment, each day with more respect. Enjoy each moment, for you never know when your time is up. ( Relax Terry, I am not blaming you. It's just my thoughts. )

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My Tenth Post

Thinking of you wherever you are
We pray for our sorrows to end,
And hope that our hearts will blend
Now i will step forward to realise this wish
And who knows:
Starting a new journey might not be so hard
Or maybe it has already begun
There are many worlds
But they share the same sky
One sky,One destiny

Often when we have looked down upon ourselves
Thinking we could be someone better
Someone different perhaps
Yet when we obtained what we have always desired
Regrets and remorse is never far
And so we come back to ourselves
Who are we really?

As selfish as we are
As harsh as reality might be
Never give up hope
No matter how cloudy it may be
How overcast the sky is
How bleak the day is
Hope never cease to amaze us

What really matters in the end
Is the belief which keeps us going
The driving force that runs within us
Clinging onto that maybe tough,
Rough and sometimes hopeless

Brush aside all obstacles
Believe in yourself!
Who knows
Maybe you will find your purpose in life

The world is not as perfect
It's not a safe haven
As long as you know your purpose
Life always seem to be better

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Yes the world sucks. Otherwise you and me will be falling off it.