My Seventh Post

Time: 11:38pm. After today, i have offically ended the long long week. Throughout the week, there has been nothing but tests, tests and more tests. To summarise all those up, this week, i had an economics test, a maths class test, a chinese test, a maths lecture test, Physics School-Based Practical assessment and finally, a general paper essay test. The thought of having to do Project Work Group Project Proposal dampens my mood further. Guess life is never fair for me.

Firstly, the beginning of my nightmares. Tuesday's economics test was a disaster for me. I just could not understand the concepts properly and how to answer the essay questions. The moment the test started, i was at a loss on what to write. The questions looked so unfamiliar and seem to taunt me for my ignorance. Eventually, i started to write a few lines and scribble whatever i had studied in my notes. However, i realised my time management skills was non-existant at all. The first questions consisted only of 8 marks, and yet i foolishly spent close to 40 minutes on it. The second question which consisted of a whopping 17 marks, i had only 5 minutes to write down whatever nonsense i can think of. So i can probably predict that my economics test will be a disaster.

Then came wednesday. Wednesday was not so bad. Wednesday had only a class test. The class test was on inequalities. However, my grasp of that topic was not tight as well. The first question out of 5 marks, i only got 1. This shows you how poor i am at maths. Maths isn't really my subject afterall. How am i going to survive in Junior College if my Maths is so lousy? I'll just have to worry about this sometimes later. But still, these things clouds my mind, making me unable to think.

Thursday was chinese test. Chinese at H1 in Junior College is so tough. The choices they give you are so close. But then again, i have not touched chinese since last year june. Maybe my chinese getting a little bit rusty. The chinese test was not bad, although i have no confidence in it as well. Overall, chinese was abit more relaxed as the enviroment was conducive for the test.

Finally, the judgement day. Friday, the day of the 3 tests. Sometimes, when people say that what happens in the morning can be a sign of things to come. After today, i strongly believe in this sentence. My maths lecture test was a disaster too. I wrote down an asymptote and cancelled it away because i thought i was wrong. Damn it. Then when i raise my hand to call for a teacher, one of them standing just a few metres in front of me didn't even bother to come and help me. Instead, my maths tutor, Mr Poh, walked from the other side of the lecture hall to where i was, on the other side to attend to me. It wasted a lot of my valuable time and true enough, i did not manage to finish the test. Never mind, they say that failing tests in Junior College is a common sign. So, i proceed on to the next obstacle. Physics Practical. Again, i made several mistakes involving the loading and unloading process. My graph was different from other people's and i really feel an all time low. Such is my depression that i do not wish to even mention about my General Paper Essay Test. But one thing is for sure, is that i will sure flunk it. Then again, i feel i will flunk this week's tests.

Then, there is NAPFA test next week. Because of my stupid stomach condition, i always have trouble with 2.4km run. How am i going to cope with it next week? What am i going to do? How can i pass it? Questions and questions floods my mind. Time: 12:04am. I am feeling really depressed right now. I have alot of things on my mind. My life really sucks. Sometimes, i wonder if the world will be better off without my existance. Everything i do, i really do not know what i am looking for. I have consistent headaches and pains in my brain. But still, my terrible life must go on. Even if it means putting on a brave front and smiling happily in front of other people. I am breaking down soon. What if i cannot take it anymore? What roads do i have in front of me? I've tried my best. Tried very hard indeed.

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