My 13th Post

Well, it has been really long since i last updated. Just thought i will update it now while i still have the time. For the past few weeks, even though i attempted to study, i still felt that the results will be the same regardless. From Maths that day till Physics on thursday, i have absolute confidence that i can pass none. So seriously screwed up is my papers that i have consider the possibility of not going for the rest anymore. While some of my classmates are rejoicing over how easy the papers are, i was comtemplating suicide. Easy papers? Right.

These few weeks has also brought about the return of my gastric. I have to suffer the pain every morning and still cannot do anything about it. I know is a psychological problem, yet i cannot bring myself to face it. The longer i take to face it, the worser the problem is becoming. To think that yesterday, when all my papers are still not finished, i even went out to LAN with my friends. Not that it was not worth it, we managed to own a group of friends there as well. The feeling of seeing their faces when they lost to us was in a way, satisfying. Now i sound like a crazy maniac. It's a side effect from an illness known as MYE. Hopefully by next week, i would have recovered from it.

If everyone in the world has the chance to pick another life, what will they choose? Will they choose a life they desire? Or will they want a life that guarantee comforts through the rest of their lifetime? For me, i would not choose any. Cause mine is already screwed up enough. I have little ambitions, little dreams. All i want now, is to get through MYE. Yet, that still seems quite far away from my hands. So what will it be? Will i screw up badly? Or will i screw up to the point of no return. Principal's office awaits.

-End- T.T